I know it’s my first post, Hell of a way to introduce myself. But it feels like it’s been five years of misery, in reality it’s only over a year and a half. Urologist have no idea how to deal with it, family doctor wants me on drugs that just put me to sleep all the time, I’m sure he’s happy because I’m not complain any more, because I sleep all day and sleep all night. I’ve been waiting a year to get into the “chronic pain clinic” . Right now they are saying it’s going to be 14 months before they think about looking to when they can schedule me in. I can’t think of a single reason to go on if this is what the rest of my life is going to be.
How do you guys do it?
I’m so tired of lying, so tired of trying to believe that it’s all in my head; if I had a better attitude the pain would go away. If you don’t have an answer that’s OK, I’m not looking for pity, I’m useless as fuck now and my kids would now be better off without me. I’m so tired of lying and telling everyone that I have a sore back. I really can’t believe the doctors do this to parents like me with little kids. I really can’t believe that I volunteered for this.
Yes, I’ve thought about street drugs, never did them before, Other than what I’ve seen in the movies I have no idea where to start with them. I am so ready to go