Ultrasound apparently looks okay, unreal as my balls are very swollen. I keep asking my wife, she’s says they are about twice the size they were pre vas. Maybe I had small balls. These don’t fit in between my legs and push forward when I stand, squeezed out basically. Also swelling makes penis sick out parallel with the ground while standing up, prior to vas penis hung downward. Anyway, apparently it’s all normal.
Had T levels checked after reading a lot here, turns out my testosterone has mysteriously taken a dive!! I’m 6ft 230 pounds stacked with muscle, 5 weeks ago (pre vas) I was doing heavy dead lifts, bench, squats etc, I wish I had my T checked prior, I could just look at weights and grow muscle, there is no way in hell I had low T, now 5 weeks later my T is at 6.1, not sure what this reading is, just now it’s low according to my doctor, he seems a little shocked, thinks it could have been a false reading due to pain that day or some other factor. Wants me to retest in a week. Side note-still have a high sex drive, extremely high, not sure if I can have low T and high sex drive ?
All of this shit is wearing on me, I push myself to walk and do things, get in a car etc. By the time dinner rolls around I’m finished, beaten down in the most pain I’ve ever been in, I lay down and don’t want to move. Starting to feel like I need to reverse this thing, I can’t deal with this much pain, I’d rather be dead. Even the look creeps me out. When erect my balls hang low, I can see the base of my penis now as it wraps under me like I have no balls, prior vas the balls were kind of part of the whole thing, now it’s as if my balls are detached, looks like pool balls in a sock type thing, is this how all vasectomized men look? How the hell is this all happening, and how is this a normal procedure.