A little background.
At 17, I found a lump on my left testicle and had a lot of pain. After all the routine and embarrassing tests were completed, it turned out I didn’t have the dreaded TC which the initial test would have indicated, but had a few cysts and a large varicocele. The cysts themselves disappeared after a few months. I had little or no pain during all this, the fact my Scrotum was on display for what felt like everyone in my city, was painful enough at 17.
Fast forward about 19 years, woke up one morning to a dull ache in my left testicle. Started like a mild case of blue balls. Which it wasn’t, but I can’t figure out how to describe it. That came and went for a few days. No unusual lumps detected in a self exam but the pain grew worse. I knew about the Varicocele, and that was still tender as always. Finally after a couple weeks of pain, a Dr. Visit and waiting on tests to be order I landed in ER with intense, I’ve been kicked in the groin, double you over, put in the stomach, my nut is going to explode pain. You guys all know that feeling. Nothing would numb the pain. So the ER was awasted trip, I got another grope and tickle by a doctor, and an abrupt without warning STD test ( doc pulled my foreskin back and Jammed a swab in with any explaination, aside from “ I want to do an STD test” and my response “ ummm Ok”. I expected further clarification. I had already indicated on two occasions during the visit I was in a long term monogamous relationship.
Over the next 5 years, through changes in Family GP, I have had the gamut of standard tests, ultrasounds, prostate exams, courses of meds. The pain runs from a Dull throb and feeling like pressure inside, to the random stabbing white flashing light pain, to constant pain somewhere near an 8 on a scale of 1 to 10. I can’t sit for long periods, any activity that involves a lot of movement can cause sever stabbing pain. Running, jogging, sex, masturbation all can result in stabbing shooting pain.
The weird thing is, if i sit in a bath of hot water, or a hot tub or sauna or if we are travelling and somewhere hot and everything is hanging lower due to the heat, I don’t have the pain, or at least not a severely. Recently was in St. Lucia for 10 days, little or no pain, unless I was in the pool or ocean for a long time, then things would start to throb, sit in the sun for while, warm up, pain decreases. I am never not aware of my left nut, except for the 24 hours after the nerve block.
Does this make sense to anyone? I am beginning to feel very alone in all of this. My relationship is suffering because of the fear I have of the pain during sex.