Just an update and for my own log, today marks officially 6 months since my Vas surgery… and because am posting here tells you am still dealing mentally and physically with PVPS.
Am i better than i was when i first starting getting the constant pain? Yes & No.
Yes i don’t get the deep constant EPI pain i was getting early on when this all started and No because now i deal with inconsistent EPI and Leg pain (all left).
Is PVPS the 1st thing i think about when i wake up in the morning and pretty much all day? Yes
Do i regret having the VAS? Yes because am in pain Would i have regretted the VAS if never had issues Nope!!
Do i think about getting a reversal? Randomly but not until my 1yr post VAS
Do i want to get a reversal? Yes/No
Yes because i have faith that it will put me back the way am supposed to be.
No because am scared am going to get even more messed up (ending up with both left and right pain instead of just left)
Do i think am going to get better and just close this chapter and move on? I pray and hope
Do i think i plateaued in my recovery and this is my new normal? Only time will tell
Can i live with this being my new normal for the rest of my life? No because i don’t think i will ever mentally accept the decision i made if am constantly reminded of it because of the pain
For the next month stop taking meds and papaya seed powder,
continue with my supplements, (Daily Vitamin, Omega Fish Oil, Tumeric)
cut back on my daily leg stretches and strengthening
follow up with my pelvic therapist and follow her plan (had my assessment and no internal issues with pelvis and hips) all external tissue and muscles.
As much as possible try to get back to my lifestyle and mental state pre VAS, and see if my body can continue to heal naturally.
I feel the more modalities and treatments i try the more it’s just a constant reminder of what am dealing with. So going to try the reverse which is minimize all treatments and try to be as routine as possible and maybe just maybe my mind will also heal…
Sorry for the rant just thought by now i would of graduated from the site