Orange, I absolute despise my wife. I have even told her so. She knows every reason why and I know that has affected our marriage. But I did not want to do this. I had ZERO medical issues before it and now I can't do anything. I used to be super active and if I couldn't sleep or whatever, I would go out jogging or walking around town. Even at like 2am. I live in a super safe quiet town. Except for the whole Sam Shepard thing..lol. But I can't do that now. I can't do anything.
MY wife told me last night i need to help teach my son who is almost 5 how to roller skate/blade. Because I used to skate and play hockey. And she said I used to like to do that. I told her, Yeah, I used to! I used to be able to do that! She stamped away and slammed a bunch of shit around and shut of the lights where I was. But what the fuck should she expect??? I mean, seriously! It's just like asking me if I signed up for the fathers day karate class with him....I was like, umm, no. Why would I?
I really truly believe she thinks I am faking. She used to tell me i was or it was in my head. She hasn't said that much any more. But i think she still believes it.
We had a talk a couple weeks ago where she started crying and saying she doesn't think she can take it knowing i hate her. And i just sat there not saying anything. She told me she thought we were in a better place, but we aren't. I am getting more and more pissed every day at her. She doesn't care. Hasn't checked on anything and never talks to me about anything. How could I not be pissed at her?
She is the reason I am here and in this mess. And every time I see her i just want to yell at her. I can't stand it. I really want to go back. But I can't. @egomes2107, what every you do, don't let someone push you in this. You will regret it forever. And if your wife is like mine, you will have NO support at home. Mine, god the stories I could tell you. The only reason I have not left her is the kids. cause we have no sex life and haven't for a year. We don't sleep in the same bed, hell, same room! I sleep on a sofa downstairs and she has the bed room. We don't talk. She doesn't care if I am in pain-my mother in law had to mention it to her on Memorial Day this year. People don't believe you and doctors, they are the worst. Can't even begin there.
Make her read this stuff. Have her talk to us. Do something. Cause honestly, your life COULD be over if you have a vasectomy. It's 50/50. I don't even say 1 in 1000 or 20 in 100. It's 50/50. and those odds, not worth it.