@MikeO No need for apologies. I've had a full range of emotions. Personally, and for any lurkers that read this, a huge part of my issues relates to mental components. Since I really didn't want it in the first place, the complications, albeit mild, make everything seem worse.
I question whether I'd be more accepting of everything if I fell in the camp of guys that made the decision independently. My aches and pains are tolerable and don't impact my life in a major way - they're just a nuisance and something I was I didn't have. Problem is that they make the regret seem exponentially worse. However, after almost 2 years, I'm starting to realize and appreciate that anger and regret only impacts me.
I has an ultrasound this afternoon before the procedure tomorrow and the tech was talking to me about why a reversal? And was the pain that bad? And didn't I want to see if it improved since I already had the vasectomy? She talked about her husband and how he had no problems. A real mind**ck but I don't think she really appreciates it all. Anyway, nothing in this whole process is easy and anxiety seems to be at every decision post-vasectomy.